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  CHAPTER 4

  I Can't Help It

  Kellen

  The frat party was in full force when we get there. People were drunk and standing everywhere. Some were dancing and singing to the songs the DJ was playing, others played beer pong; while others stood around talking. I was standing against the wall talking to some of my friends when I spot Tamia across the room.

  Throughout the night, I would search the crowd looking for her just to see some dude talking to her, or they were trying to get her to dance. I don't know why I felt this way, but if I saw one more guy talking to her I was going to go the fuck off. I decided to blame the fact that me and Tamia have become close friends in the last couple of weeks, to why I was being so protective of her. Tamia wasn't mine, but I couldn't help but to feel that way towards her. Tamia was sweet, and I must admit sexy as hell, and I didn't want any of these dudes, touching her. But me, I thought to myself. I really needed to chill, and maybe lay off the beers for a while, because I shouldn't be thinking about Tamia in this way. Plus I have a girlfriend, and I didn't want to mess that up, but I couldn't help my feelings I've developed for Tamia. I knew I had to be careful around her or I would do something stupid.

  I look across the room again, and see Tamia talking to Tasha now, and all I can think about is how I wanted to taste every inch of that beautiful brown skin of hers. Would she taste fruity like her body lotion I've grown to love? I know I have a girlfriend, but Tamia was currently the one making my dick hard. That's it no more beers tonight. Just a couple of more days and Ashley will be back in town.

  “Fuck it!” I murmur under my breath. I put my beer down and excuse myself from my friends and I begin working my way through the crowd towards Tamia. She's still talking to Tasha when I walk up behind her and wrap my arms around her waist, and I whisper in her ear. “Dance with me.”

  She stops her conversation with Tasha and turns her head in my direction with a frown on her face, until she sees it's me, and smiles.

  “Kellen you almost got knocked out.” She says with a nervous laugh.

  “Dance with me.” I repeat staring into her eyes. She turns her attention back to Tasha who's looking at us with a shocked look on her face, trying to figure out what's going on.

  “Kellen I don't think that's a good idea.”

  Not taking no for an answer, I grab her hand and pull her away from Tasha and towards the front of the house where everyone is dancing. The DJ decides to slow it down and starts to play “Stay With Me,” by Sam Smith. When I find a spot, I turn and face Tamia and gently place my hands on her hips and pull her towards me until there's no space between us. I direct her arms around my neck and I wrap my arms around her waist and bury my face in the crook of her neck and inhale. Damn she smells good.

  “Kellen what are you doing?” She asks hesitantly.

  “Dancing with you.” I say now running my nose along her neck.

  She pulls away slightly and is looking at me with a concerned look on her face. “Are you drunk?”

  “No.” I say laughing, then I pull her tightly against me, and we begin to move to the soulful sound of Sam Smith's voice. Not being able to help myself, I lower my head and plant a kiss against Tamia's neck, causing her to still in my arms. “Tamia. You smell so good.” I whisper in her ear and continue to place kisses along her neck, and I can feel her shiver in my arms.

  I pull away from her neck and look directly at her.

  She begins to lick her lips nervously and I lower my head to kiss her, but stop when I feel someone nudging me. I look over my shoulder and find Jay.

  “Hey man, I'm sorry to interrupt.” He says looking from me to Tamia.

  I pull away from Tamia and give my full attention to him. “No problem man, what's up?”

  “Well I was wondering if we could head out early. Tasha had too much to drink and I want to get her home, before she starts acting crazy.”

  I run a frustrated hand through my hair. “Sure.”

  “Cool. Tamia can you get Katie? I'll grab Tasha.” Jay asks.

  Tamia nods and walks away.

  “Okay I guess I'll pull my Jeep around.” I say to Jay.

  “Okay man, we'll see you out front.”

  ~ ~ ~

  The ride home was quiet. Jay was sitting up front with me texting away on his phone while the girls sat in the back. I look in my rear view mirror and see that both Tasha and Katie are knocked out and Tamia is looking out her window. As if she senses someone watching her, she turns her gaze from the window and her eyes lock with mine. After a few moments, I cut eye contact with her and focus my attention back on the road. A couple of minutes later I pull up into their apartment complex, then I park and cut my engine off.

  “Alright man.” Jay says turning towards me and gives me some dap. “I'll see you later on tonight.”

  “Later.” I respond. Jay gets out and retrieves his sister and they head to their apartment building.

  “Katie wake up. We're here.” I hear Tamia in the backseat.

  “I'll get her Tamia.”

  We both get out my Jeep. Tamia steps aside while I pull my sister out, who is still asleep, so I lift her in my arms while Tamia shuts the doors, then we make our way up to their apartment. As soon as Tamia unlocks the door, I take Katie to her room and get her situated then I head to the front and find Tamia sitting on the couch, removing her shoes.

  “Kellen thanks for helping me with Katie.” She says with a smile while rubbing her foot.

  “You're welcome.” I say staring at her feet. “Why wear shoes you know are going to hurt your feet by the end of the night?”

  “I guess it's the price you have to pay when you want to look good. You should know better asking me that question. Your girlfriend is a model.” She responds.

  “Well shoes or not, I think you look good. You're beautiful.” I say, causing her to shift uncomfortably on the coach.

  “You look tired Tamia.” I say breaking the silence.

  “Actually I'm not. I think I'll stay up and watch a little TV, you're more than welcomed to stay and watch with me. We could finish watching the zombie series. I think we're almost done with season two.” She says nervously.

  I turn and look at the clock on the TV stand and notice its 2am.

  “I think I'm going to head home. I'm kind of tired.” I lied. “Plus I don't think Katie would approve of me sleeping on her couch.” I laugh. “Maybe next time?”

  Tamia looked rejected, but forced a smile. “Yeah sure. Be careful going home.”

  “Of course. Good night Tamia.” I say not wanting to leave her.

  “Night Kellen.” She whispers.

  Then I was out the door.

  CHAPTER 5

  Decisions

  Tamia

  As soon as Kellen left, I head to my bathroom to take a long shower. I'm standing under the shower spray letting the water cascade down my body hoping it would wash away all thoughts of Kellen out my mind. I know he has a girlfriend but I couldn't help but to wonder what it would be like to be his. Then there was tonight. The way he looked at me with those blue eyes, to the way he touched and kissed me while we danced.

  I let out a deep frustrated breath and tried shaking my thoughts of him. Tamia he's taken. He did those things not knowing what he was actually doing. I think to myself, trying to rationalize the situation. He did have a few beers tonight. Maybe that could explain his behavior, right?

  Deciding not to put too much thought into it anymore, I finish washing my body, rinse off and get out. After drying off, I brush my teeth, then I put on my favorite button down pajama shirt along with some boy shorts. After applying my face moisturizer and body lotion, I switch the bathroom light off and head back into my bedroom and I'm startled when I see Kellen sitting on my bed.

  “Shit you scared me.” I say holding my chest.

  “Sorry.” He says with a sexy smirk. “I didn't mean to scare you.”

  I'm standing in the middle of my room staring at him. “W
hat are you doing here?”

  He looks down at his hands contemplating his answer. When he looks up at me, I can see the look in his eyes, and at that moment I knew I was in trouble. I begin to move towards my dresser, but when I do Kellen stands, grabs my arm and pulls me to him, until he's sitting again and I'm standing between his legs.

  “Tamia.” He says my name, forcing me to look directly into his eyes.

  “Kellen, what do you want?” I ask trying to pull away. He releases my arm, and wraps both of his arms around me, until he's hugging me to his body.

  “You Tamia. I want you.” He whispers. “For some reason I can’t get you off my mind.”

  I begin to squirm in his arms, trying to get away but all he does is tighten his hold on me.

  “Kellen, stop. You have a girlfriend.” I say breathless.

  “Do you really want me to stop Tamia?”

  “Kellen your sister is across the hall.” I say trying to persuade him that this wasn't the time or place.

  “Well I guess we'll have to keep it down, won't we?” He whispers.

  Releasing his arms from behind me, he places his hands on the back of my thighs then moves them up until he's cupping my butt.

  “Damn Tamia, I want you so bad.” He says leaning his forehead to rest on my chest.

  “Kellen this isn't right. We shouldn't be doing this. You have a girl...”

  “Tamia, I know, but I need you. We don't have to do anything you don't want to. All you have to say is stop and I will. Just let me touch and kiss you.”

  He looks up at me, awaiting my answer. After a moment of silence and no response from me, Kellen makes the decision for me and begins to unbutton the top button of my pajama shirt, then the next. I knew in the back of my mind that what we were doing wasn't right, but I didn't stop him. After undoing the third button, he leans in a places a kiss between my breasts, causing a moan to slip from my lips, then he continues unbuttoning every single button until he gets to the last one. He pulls me forward by my hips, forcing me to put my knees on the bed one at a time until I'm straddling him.

  He opens my shirt until my breasts are free, then he leans forward and flicks my right nipple with his tongue, then slowly circles his tongue around it before sucking it into his mouth, causing me to arch into him. Another moan escapes my mouth and I can't help but to run my fingers through his hair bringing his head closer to my breast. He continues to lick and suck on me. Causing me to throw my head back moaning his name. He takes that opportunity and releases my nipple and kisses his way up my neck until he captures my bottom lip with his teeth, tugs it lightly, then he soothes it with a lick before invading my mouth with his tongue, kissing me slowly and thoroughly like he has all the time in the world.

  He breaks the kiss and we're both panting and breathing each other’s air. Planting a sweet kiss on my lips, Kellen gently picks me up and turns around and lays me on my bed. I scoot further up my bed and watch Kellen remove his shirt. I can't help but to stare at his tan lean body. He has ink tatted on his right side near his rib that I never knew he had, and he had a nice set of abs along with narrow hips that showed off his V cut.

  Kellen unbuttons and unzips his jeans and climbs up the bed to me until his body is hovering over me. He gently nudges my legs apart with his thighs until he has better access, and settles between my legs, allowing me to feel his erection, then he begins to grind against me. Leaning forward Kellen licks my upper lip before drawing it into his mouth, then he nibbles and sucks my lower lip kissing me once again. I take that opportunity and begin to run my nails down his back causing him to moan into my mouth, and I begin grinding against him.

  Kellen slowly pulls his lips away from mine and begins kissing his way down my body.

  “Kellen.” I say in a breathless warning.

  “Tamia, please don't make me stop.” He whispers against my body.

  He continues to kiss his way down my body. And when he gets to my navel, he dips his tongue inside then he lifts my hips up slightly and slowly removes my boy shorts and tosses them to the floor.

  “Tamia open your legs for me sweetheart.” He says with lust in his eyes.

  I'm so far gone at this point that I obey and slowly open my legs wide, exposing myself to him.

  He positions his head between my legs and begins to trail kisses starting from my left knee all the way down until he reaches my pussy.

  “I can’t wait to taste you Tamia.” He whispers against my thighs.

  Using his fingers he opens me up exposing my pink center, then he slides two fingers inside of me and begins to work his fingers in and out, and in all different angles. “Damn you're so wet and tight.” He says.

  I couldn't take it anymore. I felt like I was about to explode it felt so good. I lift my hips off the bed and begin moving against his fingers trying to relieve the pressure he was building up inside me.

  Kellen slowly removes his fingers and begins to lick small circles around my opening, before dipping his tongue inside me.

  “Aaaaah!” I scream, failing miserably on trying to be quiet.

  “Sweetheart you have to keep it down.” He whispers, and continued exploring me with his tongue, alternating from sucking and tonguing my opening.

  “You taste so fucking good Tamia.” He says while French kissing my lips down below and all I can do is take it and love every minute of it.

  “Come for me Tamia.” Kellen orders then he captures my clit into his mouth and sucks. I feel my body start to jerk, then I scream and explode into his mouth. He continues to lick and suck on me until I have nothing left to give.

  Kellen then crawls up my body and places a loving kiss to my lips, then positions himself behind me and gathers me into his arms, pulling the blankets over us, then places a kiss to my bare shoulder.

  “How do you feel Tamia?” He asks, then places a kiss to my neck.

  “Exhausted.” I respond with a yawn.

  “Good. Get some sleep.” He says pulling me tighter against him.

  “Okay.” I whisper, then yawn.

  That's the last thing I remember saying before falling asleep in Kellen's arms.

  CHAPTER 6

  Ashley?

  Kellen

  As soon as I knew Tamia was asleep, I gathered all my clothes, got dressed and headed back to my apartment. Several hours later I'm laying in bed thinking about how I just cheated on my girlfriend. How was I supposed to tell Ashley about Tamia and me? What I should have done was left Tamia alone last night, then I wouldn't be in this situation now. I've never been the type of guy who cheats on his girlfriend, but last night I couldn't help myself, and I refuse to blame my actions for the number of beers that I had, because deep down my feelings for Tamia have been building up since that day I first met her. Then last night at the party, I couldn't take my eyes off her or stop touching her.

  All last night, all I could think about was how bad I wanted to fuck her. After dropping everyone off last night, I should've headed home to my own bed, but instead I headed back to Tamia's apartment, went to her bedroom, and waited for her to finish up in the bathroom, and when she came out I took and claimed what I wanted from her, and I wanted more.

  Ashley is great and I really care about her, but I can't help that I want Tamia too. I know I have some decisions to make and I needed to make them soon. Ashley wasn't expected back for a couple of days, so I have time to figure out how to explain this situation to her. I've really fucked up, and I need to figure my shit out.

  We were all meeting up at Jay and Tasha's apartment later to discuss our plans for Thanksgiving break, so I knew I would see Tamia tonight. I grab my cellphone off my night stand getting ready to send Tamia a text, when I see three missed calls and five text messages from Ashley. Deciding to read and respond to Ashley's messages later, I search for Tamia's name and send her a text.

  Kellen: Tamia we need to talk. Can you meet me after we discuss Thanksgiving break?

  Then I press send and toss my cellphone back o
n the night stand, and I get out of bed and head to my bathroom to release myself and brush my teeth. When I'm done I throw on a pair of sweats and my East Florida hoodie and head out for my morning jog. After jogging 3 miles I head back to my apartment and shower. Since I had nothing planned until this evening, I hop back into bed, watch some TV, then eventually I fall asleep.

  I'm having a dream starring Tamia. I'm sitting in a chair and she's standing between my legs looking down at me with a sexy look on her face. She's wearing the same pajama shirt from last night and she's slowly unbuttoning it for me. My eyes stay focused on her the whole time anticipating a glimpse of that soft brown skin underneath. She opens her mouth and whispers my name and smiles. Then she says my name again, and that's when I realize that the voice isn't coming from my dream, but someone was actually calling my name.